Yes to all of this! It was like you were reading my life story of those first 12 weeks but with much more self-awareness and humor. The first trimester is no joke — the baptism-by-fire of pregnancy. I eventually came to the same mentality that no matter what I did this could still all go terribly wrong and that somehow, the fact the fate of this had almost nothing to do with my actions, was comforting.
Currently in my 27th week. As I type this comment, in my peripherals, I can see my little miss is thumping away at the top of my stomach… probably because of the caffiene in my only cup of coffee for the day… But it’s Saturday so maybe I’ll treat myself to a small cup in the afternoon like the terrible rebel mom that I am ;) Good luck with your pregnancy and new little buddy.